hello. im YUXIAN

9 is a chio number
& i think that brown and limegreen are pretty lor :D

这一秒不失望，
下一秒就会有希望。
` 6D02
` adlin
` angeline
` anna & natalie
` april
` ariana
` arkar
` atiqah
` cheryl
` chloe
` chunfu
` eileen
` elaine
` ethel
` evona
` fengji
` geraldine
` grace
` huitian
` huiyi
` james
` jelyn
` joan
` jonathan
` joyce
` kailin
` lanqi
` lynette
` mingyu
` pingkee
` polly
` puqin
` rachel
` shirley
` sihui
` waikit
` wanping
` wanyi
` weisiang
` xinlin
` yiling
` yingwai
` yongyong
` yumin
` zhiyang


` PHOTOS

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yue lai yue bu liao jie zi ji le

kai shi huai yi yan qian de ren shi bu shi tong yi ge zhen shi de wo

10:56 PM

this is the FIRST time i reached home before 8pm since term started (: and its probably the last too since term is gg to end.

i think im gg to go on a diet. realised that my leg is really THICK. omgxzxzx!!

and i took photos with benjamin, elaine and zijie! :D

6:37 PM

i think that this is going to be a bad week.
i wonder how im going to survive.
sometimes, i wish that time would stand still
or.. nevermind.

11:18 PM

i think that im very very very stupid. owell, i know that thats not a new thing. but i felt that im like the most stupid person on earth on friday. aftermath of screwing up physics spa.

and i burst my egg. my egg yolks gone. BLARDY HELL. i love eggs! ):

i shall just stuff myself with b&j cookie dough (no fudge brownie) and watch shows till i rot. ive no motivation to study at all.

1:30 PM

suddenly, i realised that lifes very fragile.. heard that the auntie passed away. shes like so young an d her kids too! motherless ):

25 august. so fast 2 years have passed. i was wondering, what would happen if nothing had happened 2 years ago.

i want to change the way i live now but can i? it seems that everything is predestined and arranged already. and all i can do is accept it. after these, i think ive grown up. you may not see it, but i can feel it. thats the important thing.



three and a half M, you are the one (:

4:37 PM

i
m
so
glad
that
this
week
is
gg
to
be
over




(:


and i screwed up my spa.

8:40 PM

lol. according to some, i sound rather emo in the previous posts. well well, im not emo. lets just say in deep thoughts (:

brother has gone to seoul this morning for about 4 months or so. studying there. he better get me that BIGGGGGGG teddy bear thats taller than me or he wont be allowed into the house (:

and blardy hell! my maid turn her radio volume louder than mine lor. what the heck. how can like that one! im gg to blast my radio and show her whos the man! :D okay, thats very mean.




dont say it,
do it.

8:40 PM

instead of doing something productive, i went blog hopping. and i realised that many ppl are sick of jc life. i bet you guys miss secondary school life dont you. what a bad patch we are gg through.

i miss

py, rach, huimin, cheryl, chloe, evona, ariana, joanne, april, liping, arkar, zhongming, jiankai, mingyu, james kang, weelic, jerico, james lee, philip, wanyi, shimin, naomi, angeline, jonathan, eunice, charmaine, ann, weihao, divek, karntiban, cheryl mummy, chun ying, jessica, yosephine, polly, jamie, bingyun, geraldine, ethel, jelyn, weiting, sihui, yumin, chonghui, lester, anna, natalie, zhenyang, atiqah, huiyi, hweeli, elaine, zi jun... owell, just EVERYONE from andss, even those who i rarely talk to and only just wave at them.

innova ppl not counted lar. i still meet them almost everyday, and im glad that they are in the same school as me (: puu, abel, hanisah, adlin.

BUT ehh, i gg to TRY to work my ass off for promos

cause after promos, i know that im gg to get a kickass time. yep. a reunion with all my friends, a trip to genting with some noobs (you guys have to say yes), catch simpsons online cause i didnt manage to watch the show, watch taiwan and hongkong shows all day long and most importantly, KEEP THE BOOKS AS FAR AWAY FROM ME AS POSSIBLE.

ehh, cant wait. now, i have to work. xian ku hou tian! yao jiang hua yu yin wei kao shi kuai dao le~ i will try not to come online. but again, try is such an important word that i cant help wondering if i can keep to it. haaaa.














heres a photo to motivate YOU and ME! (:

11:30 PM

dont feel like studying although promos nearing. man, i think im gg to flunk everything. chemistry and physics spa this week. eeee. i hate spas. im rather full now after the dinner at occ. saw ex neighbour and ex schoolmate there. eh, i think that todays pw meetings unproductive. didnt do much. i just stone there like nobodys business.

im stoning.

stone

stone

stone

i rather take O levels. at least i was kind of motivated to study and get into a jc. never did i think that i would end up in innova. haha. all the big talks about gg to at least ajc. pae left a big impact on me. and on puu. haaha. goodbye now, im off to watch show. studying is stupid.

8:46 PM

i think that schooling sucks big time. studies alone is bad enough alrdy. and now, pw is piling up. have to go do pw tmr afternoon. dammit, tmr afternoon is supposed to be my studying time. im alrdy behind time, lagging badly and sian lar. plus all the troubles in school and everything adding up,

im blardy sick of school and i wish that someone nice will come and bomb the whole school down.

siann. let everythings be my fault. i should just vanish or something. if i went off, many things will be better. here i go again. if i went off, ill get to see rachel everyday and stuff ourselves with food. damn, that sounds better.

i have enough of this unhappy life. i want back the happy me. i want to go back to andss where nothing like this will happen. SHIT EVERYTHING THATS GG WRONG.

9:27 AM

i think i finally put physics and maths into good use.












pardon my lousy drawing skills. anyways, this is called a sinusoidal graph. or to be more specific, a cosine graph.

if you dont understand, scroll down to the archives, turn your head 90 degrees clockwise (see, maths application again) and note the end of each month. theres a curve which shows the cosine shit!

maybe this is a sign that im turning into a maths and physics lover. great, im loving it. you guys should too. who ask maths and physics to be sooo cute.

11:42 PM

& i was thinking about what would be happening to me if i stayed in aj. RAAHHH. maybe i wont be such a drat-sch-person-because-you-are-there. ha, its quite moronic to hate school because of you. eeeeee. or maybe i would have gotten the mugger disease and started mugging. damn? maybe.. if only i scored 2 points lesser for Os or studied higher chinese in secondary school. then i would have gotten into vj or nj. and join fencing as my cca. ah. im a thinkalot person, im an indecisive person.

but if i didnt stay, i wouldnt have met some people like mc, josh, devanai, jh, jq, the nma people and more. plus i wont have the chance of buying munchy doughnuts.

oya, huimin they all bought doughnuts during our chinese and i stuffed two in my mouth before gg to the libraria for pw. oreo and cinamon. and the school should place a cup noodle venting machine.






i HATE those youlikewho comments ,
when you dont like anyone.
its blardy irritating,
test my patience and continue it.
dont say i didnt warn,
i can and will turn nasty.
i cant wait to see my own reaction.


11:09 PM

omg. my donuts, are gone. just an empty box left! EEEEE. i ate like 3 to 4 donuts! diet time.

11:01 PM

hehe, after cca my class ppl and i went to queue for donuts :D i love munchy donuts. wooohooo.




























okay. huimin is asking me to do gp project and luqman is reminding me about pw. both are due tmr. damnnn ):

there are some attention seeker in school. eeeeeeee. fffffffffffffffff.gggggggggggg.

10:29 PM

they call me a perfectionist.

practice makes perfect
but no one is perfect
so why bother practising?

seriously, i dont really care whether people beat me for exams or not. as long as ive met my own expectations, its enough. i dont like comparisons. each of us has our own pace, our own standards, our own expectations. yea, all those talks about compare yourself with those above you. no matter how high you go, there will still be someone higher. im sick of climbing. or rather, im afraid of missing a step and falling down.

shut up. i dont need those mugger shit. besides, it takes one to know one. so there. ooo, patience is a virtue. DOHHH.

im exhausted. and its just the second day of the week. more yucky days to go. DAMMIT. those andss days are missed. i miss that place and the people there like almost everyday. OMGXZXZX. im turning emo. nooo. even secondary 4 days aint as bad. i mean , anything is better than pw. the govt SHOULD seriously start considering to kick that subject away. to mars blah blah blah, just somewhere out of sight.









rumors are rubbish.
without them, maybe things would have been different.
2 years and counting alrdy.
have you forgotten about those days & the pacts?
ive not.
its still fresh, as though it happened just yesterday.
i wonder how long it takes to get over 2 years worth of memories.


11:39 PM

school started with a very 'nice' encouragement. 45 more days to promos (: ghee. so sweet. UGH. DAMMIT. WHY SO FAST. KIND OF SCARED GETTING RETAINED. BUT I STILL DONT HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO START STUDYING. OMGXZXZX. DIEE PLEASE, DIE.

forget what i wanted to blog about alrdy =.= a good news. waitt. let me think first.

OOOO. I RMB ALRDY. I PASS MY ECONS ESSAY. OMGXZXZX. FIRST TIME I PASS OKAY. SO HAPPY. FIRST TIME MANY OF US PASS THE DAMN ESSAY :D :D HARD WORK DO PAY OFF. after such a loooooong time. (: goes around high5ing with people.

off to do pw ): sian please. luqman wants us to finish the wr draft by tmr ): i have a very efficient pw leader.














i miss them. fun times. haaha. sec 2 life is a blessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. i miss andss

10:34 PM

just when i thought i found the phone i want, GREEN/ BROWN samsung x520, i realised that IT HAS NO BLUETOOTH. omg lar ):
















DAMNNN la.

7:32 PM

1. im sad because last week i saw a lime green phone. very pretty lar! my mum said that shes gg to get it for me. rmbed the model no. s500i

2. im sad because i checked the website for this model. couldnt find the limegreen one. found this instead.


























3. im sad because just when i wanted to get this phone (at least it has abit of green), i realised that alot of people are having keypad problems with this phone. the keypad cracked.

4. im sad because i couldnt find any nice new samsung flip phone.

IM SOOOOOOOO SAD LAR. I NEED A NEW PHONE. MY THIS PHONE IS DYING SOON.

but i still love my phone. owell, looks like im gg to stay with it till i find a nice samsung flip phone. but samsung doesnt look like its coming up with one. all the new samsung phones are slide ones! ughhh

):

1:23 AM

what a tiring day!

had some national celebrations thing in school at first before heading to the bus to city hall. and had to go do cca. lol. loserr. sat at the back with those that im closest to in class, namely kit, huimin, sling, asri, mc, josh. we had a hell lot of fun lar. fine i didnt. i got bullied by mc and asri. took many many photos today. wheeeee. after the whole thing went seoul. waited for 29835092850hours before we could get a seat. so irritating please. meanwhile, a few of us went to buy apple strudel and use it as a cake. managed to give kit a surprise (: YEAY people, yeay! saw ms wong after that. and we stalked her. LOL. sounds wrong but we did it lar. haahh. alot of ppl wanted to shit after eating. lol. kit, and, mc etc =.=

met 24o4 people after that. as usual everyone was late. haaha. went to some place to eat steamboat. owell, it wasnt that nice but still, THANKYOU philip for organising (: mac after that. i miss andss life still lar. sian please. saw 851 at the traffic light. arkar and i ran to catch the bus. on the way home, puu called me and said t hat she saw javin, shook hands with him etc. UGHH. wo gen ta mei you yuan fen ah! ): so sad please.

yeay, tuitionmates watch movie day on friday. i cant wait. it has been a loooong time since puu, rach and i get together! (: and the word tuition reminds me, EVONA! when can we meet up! i miss you so very much ):

have to save money for the next few days alrdy. i spent like 30bucks today on lunch and dinner alone. and damn, both are steamboat =.= my throat hurts shit now.

im tired.

11:43 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAIKIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~~~~~
thanks for always being there for me, be it laming around, lending a listening ear, studying together. and im sorry for losing my temper for i dno how many times. haha. NI SHI WO DE HAO PENG YOU!

just finished my 2nd draft eom. yeay. so happy. plus next few days no lesson. and tmrs seoul garden time with 12C. maybe simpsons but i cant go cause 2404 hotpot thing at night. i think im gg to die. eat so much. will become FAT LEI. EEEEEE.

12:12 AM

todays a super duper embarrassing day for me. like GRRRRRR. what i said in the previous entry happened. blardy hell!! during morning assembly,
mr wong: can ms --- come to find me after assembly? someone found your ez link card at the side gate.
HELLLLLLL. then my class and puus class roaredddd. i bet those people who know me laughed too ): josh said my whole face turned red. red like dno what. UGHH. so paiseh ): 12B and 12D people looked at me too. humph. ms lee called me a sotong. mr ma laughed at me. eeee! after assembly, the guys especially mengchin kept repeating what mr wong said lar! so irritating.

lunch, couldnt find my ez link card =.= i thought i lost it lar. freaked out and went around like a mad woman looking for my ez link. in the end, josh took it. IDIOT. my ez link card disappeared quite afew times because everyone took turns taking it. so pissed off lar. dylan, ivan, ryan, abel laughed at me whenever i walked past them ): SO SIAN PLEASE. what a bad experience.

went cwp to look for brown sneakers. saw one at converse but its a kids edition =.= its brown and orange. super nice lar. then the guys took the shoe and asked the salesman to give the largest size. and it turned out that i could wear it =.= hell, i didnt know that my feet that small. well, im gg to buy it anw cause its brown and orange (: so what if its a kids edition shoe. im a kid in heart too :D

10:31 PM